Reflecting on Time Without Meghann
May 24, 2018
As the anniversary of Meghann's passing from this earth approached, I felt an undeniable need to reflect on my journey without her. Sometimes, time is truly the only thing that allows us to find our way back to living after losing a loved one. It's the space needed to transform memories from poignant sadness into cherished happiness. It's the quiet strength found to turn tears into a gentle smile when thoughts of them arise.
For me, that path led to writing children's books with special needs themes. I began with Cuz I Can, followed by The Girl with Gills, Let's Play Ball, and most recently, The Magic Closet. I'm even working on a couple of new books specifically for preschool-aged children.
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Finding Healing in Unexpected Places
Why preschool? Because I discovered a group of little ones who have profoundly helped me on my healing journey after losing Meghann. Of course, losing a child is something you never "get over"—ask any parent who has endured such a loss.
Over the past couple of years, I earned my bachelor's degree from Western Illinois University and decided to get a short-term teaching license to substitute in schools. I started subbing across various ages and schools, but something truly unexpected happened when I decided to substitute at the preschool. I simply fell in love with Lyle Preschool in Kewanee. The staff immediately welcomed me into their school, and every single kiddo there is truly amazing.
As the school year winds down, I've been reflecting a lot on my time subbing. I've learned so much about myself since starting at Lyle School. It's the first time I've worked collaboratively with a group since I closed my salon and stopped working alone as a hairstylist. Whether I'm in a general education, blended, or special education classroom, the little ones never cease to amaze me with their pure innocence and the genuine love they have for their school and teachers. And there's definitely a mutual love returned by every teacher and therapist in the school.
The way the teachers and therapists start each day by lining up to greet the children with a cheerful "good morning" is the sweetest display of welcome. I've been incredibly lucky to be a part of that each time I sub.
Subbing at Lyle School has been incredibly therapeutic for me. I've learned to appreciate little boys in a way I never expected. Having always been surrounded by girls and raising my own daughter, I was surprised to find my heart stolen by the boys in the Ladybug class (each class has its own animal name at Lyle ). They're a bundle of energy, always keeping me on my toes. While I'll certainly enjoy the freedom of summer, I'm already looking forward to subbing with them again in the fall.
Thank you, Lyle School, for being such a profound part of my healing journey and for bringing a genuine smile back to my face. The dedication and positive spirit of your entire staff make subbing for any class a truly positive experience.
A special shout-out to my Ladybug teacher, Amber. I've not only watched her blossom into a caring, dedicated educator, but also a wonderful friend.
