The first 10 month of Meghann’s life seem like a blur to me. The lack of sleep, adjusting to motherhood, the constant company, nursing, and all that goes into becoming a mom.  The transition of me to us was unbelievably wonderful. I was not alone when it came to motherhood in my circle of friends.  A good friend of mine had a baby girl 4 months later.  My best friend was not the only one of my friends who had started to have children. It was a very exciting time for all of us. Life couldn’t have been any better for me and my friends.

After visiting with my best friend and her daughter, who was 4 month younger than Meghann, I noticed something. Little did I know this something was about to change my life.  As both our girls laid on the floor beside each other I noticed some similarities however I also saw one movement that was really different. Perhaps I should state that it was a lack of movement.  This lack of movement would forever change the planned path I had for my daughter and myself.

At 3 month a baby should be able to turn and hold up the head alone. Surprisingly enough I did not notice at first that my baby was not holding her head up correctly. You have to remember this was before the internet and I was a first time mother.  I didn’t have the wealth of information about baby development  at my fingertips. We had to read everything in a book.   Who had time to sit and read a book when you became a new mother?   

      I remember the conversation like it was yesterday with my friend. I remember comparing our girls and their development. Both of us thought of reasons why Meghann was behind Abby in her development.  Both of us reassuring each other  it was no big deal. Deep down I knew there was something wrong.  I felt it in the pit of my stomach.